i realized today that i love you. and i’m okay with that.
“i ask not to live, i long to die.”
Dear my Lord. My God,
i give all to you. i should have done that long ago. you are my holy father, my maker, my friend, and my love. you know my deepest thoughts. you know my heart. you know what i want most. and today i give you my transgressions. i give them all to you. they are yours from here on out. give me the will and the strength to beat the days; these lagging days, when sometimes its hard to see the good. i...
i don’t want to go out. or do anything. anything where i have to function. because you broke my heart.